Wisdom

God, grant me the...

Serenity to accept things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can, and the

Wisdom to know the difference

Patience for the things that take time

Appreciation for all that I have, and

Tolerance for those with different struggles

Freedom to live beyond the limitations of our past ways, the

Ability to feel your love for us and our love for each other and the

Strength to get up and try again even when we feel it is hopeless.

Wisdom to know the difference. That may be the biggest request that we ask for while reciting this prayer. What is wisdom? Do you have it just because you grow older. Are some born with wisdom? Do we gain wisdom by the trials and tribulations of life or are those life lessons? Is wisdom intuition? Just knowing the result without having to fail to learn it. Wisdom to know the difference. The difference between taking on responsibility that you can't handle. The difference between taking on responsibility you thought you couldn't handle but somehow pull it off.

Wisdom as defined: Wisdom often requires control of one's emotional reactions so that one's principles, reason and knowledge prevail to determine one's actions.

So... IS wisdom control..... control over one's emotions which enables them to choose the right path. The right path for the individual. Which often times does not make sense to others because they do not share the same level of wisdom or control.

Wisdom,Patience,Tolerance,Appreciation, Strength,Courage and finally Serenity.

God, grant me the serenity..............

EEWWW

Getting ready to take Matt for his 6th grade shot when I ask him to get his socks and shoes on.....
"Matt, did you find clean socks?"

"No, but I found a pair."
"Are they clean?"
"Cleaner that usual."

Wow, What do I say to that!

Train - Calling All Angels

Miss you...

Today, August 5th would have been my Mother in law's Birthday. Cancer took her away from my family almost four years ago. She would be amazed at how much the boys have grown and what kind of boys they are becoming. She would be having so much fun with them now.. if she were here. I know somehow she can see them and is with them everyday.
She never got to meet Logan , she would just love hanging out with him. My boys miss her all the time and so does my husband.

I can't help but think about how things would be different if she were still here. And I can't help but realize how life is so precious and SHORT.

"If you want to hear God Laugh just tell him your plans"

As much as I needed this weekend getaway, I'm finding it hard to keep my mind clear for more than a few minutes.

Getaway..

Ahh a reprieve.. a break, a bit of a getaway is planned.

A camping trip. A chance to be one with nature and take in all the wonders that God has given us. A chance to get away from TVs, Phones, cell phones and Yes..even people.
If I can surround myself with trees to talk to, the wind to listen to ....I will be just fine. The trees give their strength to stand tall...to bend and not break. The wind's way of breathing life into desperate lungs who haven't had the chance to BREATHE in a long time . The water that hides the life living beneath. It all speaks to my soul, helping me to put life into perspective.
Watching my kids get the greatest joy from riding their bikes as fast as they can, holding a fishing pole and reeling in the next big catch, and falling asleep with the sun because the fresh air has given them a run for their money.

Oh I can't wait!

Hello..?

Hi.. How are you ?
Ya really want to know?

Well here goes......

• Overwhelmed..overwhelmed with the harsh realities of life as a grown up, Health, Money, responsibilities, expectations
• Cheated...Cheated out of time, time to spend with my kids doing things that they want to do...Cheated out of the future that my Husband always looked forward too
• Tired...Tired of making endless phone calls trying to navigate the insurance maze of bullshit
• Sad...Sad that things are soo different
• Disappointed....disappointed in people who are old enough to pull their own weight but don't...Disappointed that I continue to forget that some people's age is greater than their IQ
• Mad...mad at myself for not sticking to MY plan...mad cause I can't find anything positive in all of this.

Oh... I'm just getting started....You still wanna know how I am?

Be careful what ya wish for...